Dive IN!

Headed to the outdoor pool at the YMCA today. It was warm enough and no rain in the clouds. Boys came along. I swam for 1/2 hr., went 1/2 mile. The boys had a lot of fun. Micah has a new love. He discovered he can dive pretty well off the board. He first did a flip and then some twist flip. He scared me and the guards with how close he came back to the board and they told him not to do that again. He wants to take lessons, so I'll look into it. I asked him how he knew how to do that twist flip and he said he learned it from wrestling. He apparently didn't heed the warning not to try that at home...or the pool.

Day 27, Workout 23

30 min swimming

love it

Like the Wind

Ok I still love the Wii but today it said I ran 4.15 miles in 20min. I was fast marching in place on the free run. But I don't think there is any way I could go outside even on a flat surface and run a 5 minute mile. Anyway I worked out, I guess it was just counting my steps?

Day 26 Workout 22

33 min on Wii

26 Aerobic

7 balance

I also had a fill yesterday. Had a long conversation as to why I'm not losing weight faster. What I'm eating and how I'm working out I've been expecting to see more results. He went over some of the things I need to change. The yogurt smoothie I've been doing could be messing with my insulin levels. I've shouldn't be eating carb snacks at bedtime. And I'm not eating enough protein. I have to eat 60-70 gram a day to not send my body into starvation mode. He said I've dieted so much in my life that I'm used to that feeling. So I have to up my protein. Today was a hard eating day, uncomfortable with every meal. It's normal to be this way after a fill because there may be a little internal swelling. Lunch today I almost got sick with just 1/2c. lettuce with 3oz. of chicken. I may have just eaten to fast because we were really busy. I headed to the bathroom but didn't get sick. OK enough icky details. I'm really excited about this band finally working...I'll keep you all updated.

Single Parenting Sucks

Kevin has been out of town since Tuesday doing Seminary stuff in Columbus. So I haven't had the time to work out. I survived with Deb's help. Kevin gets home today. Boys have early dismissal at 150pm, so I feel like my day off is over already. Made it to the YMCA.

Day 23-Day Off

Day 24-Extra Day Off

Day 25-Work Out 21-60min Power Yoga

Getting better at it

Sweat and Sunned outside

Feel GRRRRREATTT!!!

Day 22 Workout 20

48 min on Wii
Aerobic and Balance
Gets more fun everyday!!

Anything you can do....

I don't think of myself as a competitive person. But today I learned something new about myself. Went down to retrieve laundry and it wasn't done so I decided to do a little Wii Fitness. I was playing some of the balance games. There is a ski jump and even though I kept improving my rating was still amateur. I kept doing it over and over and it was pissing me off that I couldn't get more than one star. Granted I've only been skiing once in my life and that didn't go to well. I must of been 11 or 12 and some friends asked me to come ski with them. Ellen Barker and Pam somebody. They were best friends and I was the tag along. They would do things like enthusiastically ask me what I was doing Saturday, when I said nothing they would talk me into doing there paper route, so they could go have fun. Pam had a uni brow and I remember her using hairspray to tame it. SO THERE!! Anyway back to the skiing. They let me do a few passes on the bunny trail and then they took off for the bigger mountains (though this was Dayton, Ohio, not Colorado. I was too scared to go fast so I kept falling on purpose. At one point the snow smoother machine was coming and I couldn't get out of the way. So the ski patrol had to come and carry me down. Needless to say that was my last foray with snow skiing. But I will master the Wii ski jump. I will no longer be an amateur soon.

Day 21

Workout 19

Best Elliptical Ever

mile record of 14:59

2nd mile 15:11

sweat and huffed

Also 1hr. on Wii fit

I realized that you do unlock more free time as you advance

sweat a lot!!!

Trust

Noah met some new neighbors today. He called me down from upstairs to meet his new friends. They are in 4th and 1rst grade. Cute little African boys named Mamadu and Alisane. We talked a little and Noah went back outside and came in seconds later asking if he could spend the night at there house. I said Noah we need to get to know their family first and Noah said, "you know them you just met them." Our boys are very social. I wish it were as easy for us adults to make friends.

Wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Day 20
Workout 17
15min yoga and balance
15min aerobic
on the Wii
huffed and sweat

Only flaw I see is that it wont(at this point at least) let you keep going for as long as you want. So there are too many breaks in the aerobic part. But I'm unlocking new games with every workout, so maybe it just makes you start out slow.

The Best Invention Ever!!!

OK I got me/the boys Wii Fit. I'm sure all of you have heard of the Wii. The Wii fit comes with a balance board. You type in your height and age. And it calculates weight, BMI and true age. Then it takes your through various balance tests and fitness tests and starts your training. It's like a virtual gym. Tonight I did step aerobics, hula hoop, hit soccer balls with my head. It was so much fun and I actually sweat more than I usually do at the YMCA. The more time you log on the more fitness activities it unlocks so you can constantly improve. I had to sneak down in the basement and "play" before the boys found out. So my true age is 48!!!, my BMI is very high, actually don't remember the number. I'll probably do this at home a few times weekly and it'll be great when were stuck inside next winter.

Day 19

Workout #16

30minutes various Wii Fit games

sweat!!

FUNNNNNN!

Seal in Your Purpose

Day 18

Workout #15

60 min Power Yoga

Getting Better

Huffed

Feel Great

Keeping Up

Day 15 Workout #13

Monday:30min aerobic movement in front of TV

huffed a little no sweat

Day 16 Workout #14

Tuesday:30 min. calisthenics
100 leg lifts each side
100 butt crunches each side
100 ab crunches
100 push ups (ladies way)
no sweat
no huff but felt the burn

Day 17

Wednesday Day Off

Blah!!

I did workout but couldn't keep up the pace I usually do. Sounds like a lame excuse but the elliptical machine I was on seemed weird, to tihgt or something. Anyway I walked on the treadmill first and then only did a 16 min. mile on the elliptical machine.

Treadmill 14 min. 0.5 miles

Elliptical 16min. 1mile

huffed and sweat

didn't feel as good afterwards

FURNITURE!!!

Got 2 couches to put in an L-shape.

One chair to make a cozy reading

corner.

Two Tables, one with couches and one with chairs.

Have some great lamps that Deb

gave me that match. Even has some

of the green color that matches trim.

Keep up the fight

Okay I didn't work out yesterday, put still well within my goal to work out 3 out of 7 days. We had a whirlwind of home improvement/pest control this week. Tuesday night we came home to a bunch of roaches running around our kitchen. Last summer when that family lived with us their stuff was infested and since then we've seen baby ones in our dishwasher. But since we saw some adults and it totally grossed me out we had to call an exterminator. So we had to clear out the whole kitchen so they could spray in there. And move all items away from the perimeter in the rest of the house. So we did this Thursday and Friday. Friday eve. we had to put it all back because most of the kitchen was in our living room and we were having new living room furniture delivered Sat. am We got 2 couches, 2 end tables and a chair. On Monday the direct TV guy is coming to move the satellite wires so we can move the TV. Then we have to do rugs and lamps, paint and hang all the pictures I've had for 2 years. It'll look nice when done but for now it's a little chaotic. So is that enough excuses for not working out on Friday!

Friday Day 12

pooped out

Saturday Day 13

Work Out #11

Elliptical Machine

33min

1st mile 15:04

2nd mile 15:24

total distance 2.15miles

calories burned 425

median heart rate 133

sweat and huffed

went by quick

listened to John Legend

Gaze at your intention

I did power yoga again today. I did better than the last time, but still far from being able to do the whole class and every pose. My ankles, knees really bother me and I don't want to have an injury while I'm trying to stay motivated to exercise. She has us do this breathing exercises also where we release the negative thought on exhale and inhale our intention. So I've been exhaling fat and inhaling health. You'd think I'd exhale fat and inhale skinny. But it's really not my goal. My goal is to be healthy and I know the weight will come off with that goal. A co-worker who is about 100lbs. said that she ordered some small scrub tops and they were to big, "should she keep them for me, for when I lose all my weight?" I told her no, because I'll never be a small, my goal was to be an extra large. She kind of looked at me like I was crazy. Even if (when!!)I lose 100lbs. I'll still be overweight, really probably in the obese category. But I know that will still make a huge difference in my health. I really want to be under 200lbs. Last time I did that was 1994 after Nutrisystem. I remember feeling really good, I could cross my legs. I dated (it's all relative, of course) a lot that year. At one point I had multiple "boyfriends". If you don't already know the details of that summer before I got engaged to Kevin, too bad because I'm not sharing them here. Maybe I'll share on an individual basis but not in this public forum. It was all just the journey to becoming the pure, sweet, pastor's wife that I am. ; )

Day 11 Workout #8

Power Yoga:75min

sweat a lot

wore a 2 sizes smaller workout outfit

Feel Great!!!

Aerofit

Yesterday a.m I went to an aerofit listed as an aerobic and weight class for beginners. It was just my style. But I was a little embarrassed that most of the class was 70-80yr. old and in I was not outshining them. It was a good workout and I'll go back. Going to take today as my day off. Just got home from work, and I have a little swimmers ear and it's aching.

Tuesday Day 8 workout #7
45min aerobic and weights
sweat moderately

Wed. Day 9
taking off

DID IT!!!!

Allright I did 6 out of 7 days exercising!!! Sunday was pretty wimpy but still counts.

Saturday:bonus 1 hr. at least of dancing
threw my hands in the air, waved em like I just didn't care
Day 5 out of 7
Sweat a lot!!

Sunday:30 min walk in place
watched TV
huffed a little
no sweat

Monday:45 min Stability Ball Class
huffed a lot
sweat a little
AND 15 minutes on elliptical machine did a 15 min mile

HUFFED AND PUFFED AND BLEW THE HOUSE DOWN!!

1 week goal met for exercising 6 out of 7 days

This eve. I also had another fill. Know I'm getting close to my "sweet spot". Can't really eat bread anymore. Also went to support group. Which was really good motivation. I am losing weight. That ticker should be on the move soon.

Like a Fish!

Today was great throwback workout. Swimming is my sport. It's not very convenient but I love it. I swam 30 laps in 30 minutes, about 1/2 of a mile. Then I kept moving for another 30 minutes doing leg lifts, crunches, push ups, and lunges all in the water. The great part about that is you don't feel the fatigue until you get out of the water.

1hr. pool workout

sweat rinsed off

had fun

I brought the boys along for the first time. They have an indoor water park with lap lanes too. They played great. While I was standing doing exercises the lifeguard was blowing the whistle. Noah had climbed up on the safety wall, which I know now is against the rules. He managed to get up on it twice before the whistle got his attention. Since they blow the whistle about every 30 seconds it was an honest mistake. The lifeguard got all red in the face and was screaming from across the pool, and this wasn't even her area. She was being ridiculous. Later she even pulled Noah out of the pool and was screaming at him for the earlier offense. Well my mama bear instincts kicked in. She assumed he was without a parent, even though I was standing there playing with Jadon. I try to give the benefit of the doubt but I think she thought that I couldn't be Noah's mom and Jadon's mom because of the different race. This made me really mad. So I said excuse me, is there a problem. That's my son. She said he keeps getting up on the safety wall and going down the slide the wrong way. I told her that this was our first time at the pool and she could tell him the rules in a calmer way. She just huffed off. Apparently she realized I could take her down but preferred not to in my fancy black skirted swim attire. So I took my complaints to the front desk. Micah pointed out that she was probably just tired of the screaming crazy splashing kids. But I pointed out then she shouldn't be a lifeguard. Anyway we'll go back but I'll be keeping an eye on her.

33...33...33

I did it exceeded my goal again. This time I did 2 miles in 31min, burned 407 calories and did a total of 33 min on the elliptical machine. I listened to music and tried to go faster. It felt good and even though I didn't want to go I was glad I did. Natural endorphins are a good thing.

Finish Line

I exceeded my goal today by 2 mins. I did 32 min. on the elliptical machine. I did it while reading so I was slower than the other day. I did 2 miles while looking through catalogs and magazines. The time went faster but I did not.

Day 4 of 7

32 min on elliptical machine

sweat some

feel good

Day off...

Just got home from work, too late to try hip hop class. So today will be my off day. My dogs are barking and it's too late to exercise.

Day 3 of 7
Day off
not sweating
woof

This picture, was actually called tubby women doing yoga. I love it!!

YO(ga)

I've often joked that I would love to tell people that I am a Pilate's instructor, when they ask what I do for a living. I tried it out a few months ago, with a new temp at work. She told me she was a Pilate's instructor and I said "so am I". She said "small world". And I said that was a joke, see "I don't look like a Pilate's instructor". I got a good laugh at least.
I decided to try the power yoga class. I've done Yoga off and on, mostly off for 12 years. I started back when I was trying to get pregnant, even did prenatal yoga, and even when I was pregnant with Jadon. When I asked an obgyn if I could keep doing yoga while I was pregnant. He laughed and said "you stand on your head, you break your neck". Needless to say I didn't go back to him. Anyway I've only ever done tapes and classes at the YMCA. The Y is usually safe, there are normal people there, all sizes, all ages. So I went tonight. As I arrived, they were taking their perky little selves outside, to gaze at the sun. I trotted behind, thinking does this 5 minute walk count as aerobic exercise. I put my mat down, noted I was the heaviest by at least 100 pounds and started to listen. The instructor started to roam, she came right up to me, crouched down and said "have you practiced yoga". I wanted to say I'm a Pilate's instructor, but she seemed to busy for the joke, so I just said "yes". I thought I can do this. Then she started this series of 5 poses, quickly for 5 reps. Stand up, hands to the sky, bend down, hop or walk your feet back, down to a push up, cat stretch, then downward dog, then hop your feet forward, inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale, start again. Ok we did this 5 times, and she said alright "that's your warm up". I let out a laugh, and tried to disguise it as a vigorous exhale. I remembered that most of the yoga I did was when I was 80pounds thinner, and a lot of the poses were physically impossible. SO I just did the best I could basically faked it. I was glad I was in the back, and then she had us pivot around, and now I'm in the front. All I can think is thank god there are no mirrors, I can't see myself. And then I realized everyone could be looking at my butt!! Oh well. Afterwards she came up and introduced herself. And said "she loved my modifications, and it's all about working at the place were in". I know what she meant but it seemed so new agey. I will go back so I can show her that even though I'll never be a size zero, I will be able to grab my big toe instead of my shins. One day I'll be able to do the full POWER YOGA, not just the YO.

Day 2 of goal of 6
Power YOGA 90mins
little sweat
felt stretched and great

Y-M-C-A

Ok I did it. Joined the YMCA(thanks family) today. I did my first workout amongst mostly old people, so I felt quite speedy on the elliptical machine. My goal was 30min, but it took longer to sign up, so I didn't have time before I had to go pick up the boys from school. I'm going to keep track of my progress on this blog.

Workout: 18min. on elliptical machine

One mile: 15:42

Median pulse 133

Didn't really sweat

I'm going to try different things so I'll have a variety and not get bored. Tomorrow I think I'll try power yoga. I'd like to do something 6 days a week. But my bare minimum goal for now is 3 days a week.

Shock Collar:the story of my latest fill

Ok, is this really what I wanted? I got another fill on Thursday I'm up to 8ml out of 14. But I found out that you can actually fill past 14 if needed. In fact the rep that sells the band told the nurse working with me that they have filled it up to 100ml and it didn't rupture. So I think I'm really close to my sweet spot. I'm getting major restriction with the food that the told me to expect to have trouble with pizza, breads, soft or sticky stuff.
I think I just ate my last piece of pizza. I had it about an hour ago and I feel like I ate the whole pizza. It starts as just a heartburn feeling but continues on to a bloated, burping, back pain festival. This is what I have been waiting for? Forced will power as I have been calling it. I know I can't sustain will power on my own, so this is my goal.
But I'm sad that I won't be able to eat pizza or a Krispe Kreme donut or a bagel or a muffin again. As I write this I know it sounds ridiculous...why should I be sad over food? But those of you who have the relationship I do with food; the people who live to eat not eat to live, will understand me. This begining time is a training time and I'll have to learn a whole new way to eat. It's the change that I need to do, but the surgery alone is just the begining. I think I'll head back in to counseling soon to deal with the issues other than food. My body image, my abuse of food, my self sabatoge. All I can say is, it's damn time. And most days I'm ready.