Keeping on Track?

It' been a hard week at work. I worked Monday thru Friday as receptionist. This is probably the worst time of the year to be receptionist. A lot of the school and sports forms are due on Aug. 1st and when people get around to thinking about getting an appt. to get the physicals done all of our appointments are taken. That combined with Dr. vacations has made it very tense at the dr. office. On Thursday the nurse that has worked their for a loooong time was very worked up. I made a mistake and overbooked a time slot. I helped out the best I could, putting patients in rooms, pulling her charts...but she would not let it go. She was so rude to me that it made me cry. I admit I haven't felt good, headaches, tired, the blahs, hormones all week, but her words just pushed me over the edge.

So all of the above effects my eating and exercise as well. We had a lot of leftover chocolate and ice cream from Micah and Noah's bday party. In the evening I've been sooo exhausted and stressed that I have turned to food. Thursday and Friday I didn't even exercise. So I need to turn this around. I won't let a couple days turn into a week and then a couple weeks turn into a month. So today I'm back on the eating plan so far, and I've worked out twice. My plan for next week is to work out at lunch break or right when I get home to shake away the stress and blahs and stay on track with my food. If I'm going to slip up it's always in the evening. Food goes down much easier then, especially the bad stuff like ice cream, cake and candy. All in all I'm only up 1.5lbs, unfortunately I'll have to lose them again this week.

Anyway a little venting....a little confession...and right back to it. Even when I don't want to, the results are worth it.

My virtual Model.

I haven't really kept up with pictures to show my progress...I need to do that. Until then I found this great website...it's a little freaky though.

On left current 303.

On right goal 190.

Boobs and arms need to be bigger, and I

don't know if my thighs will ever not touch!

YOU HAVE got to BE KIDDING ME!!!!!!!!!

Tonight in yoga she guided us into this pose. I couldn't stop laughing. I can't find a picture of it so I'll just have to describe it. Sit on your bottom, bend your knees, grab your big toes, straighten your legs, now throw yourself back landing on your shoulders, legs spread eagle above your head. I was the only one laughing, but I couldn't help it it was hilarious looking. Of course I couldn't do it but it was fun watching everyone else try.

Happy Birthday to Micah and Noah....

Had a combined birthday party for Micah and Noah yesterday. Beautiful weather, had a great time. Swam, water balloons, ate and danced. Probably won't do a combined party again. They get soooooo jealous and possessive. Micah kept saying it was really his party because Noah had a family party on his birthday back in June. Kevin has great video of all the kids dancing and then in the distance Noah playing by himself at his own party. He's so independent. I'll try to post it next.

Shop til you drop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me with Cathy O.

Cathy, Beth and Heidi

My friends came down from Columbus this weekend to celebrate Heidi's graduation from dental hygiene school. We shopped Friday at the Target Outlet, ate at PF Changs, and even an underwear run to Wal Mart(yes 2 of us forgot to pack underwear). We stayed up late playing cards and drinking wine. Today we hit Ikea and Jungle Jim's before they headed home. I bought the most stuff, had a whole list of things I realized we needed as I cleaned the house last week. And I got a rug, entertainment center, drapes and lamps for the Living Room. It's my focus right now. Next I want to paint and hang pictures etc. on the walls.



I felt like I had gained 20 lb. because I ate more than I have been. But came home and got right on the scale and I had stayed the same. It may show up in the next few days but those occasional lapses are fine according to my Dr. I did much better than I would of a year ago. At PF Changs I ate mostly protein and a little bit of noodles and rice. I did have dessert because they come in these cute little shot glasses and are a perfect portion. Couldn't really eat much breakfast and was back on the program for lunch. And I haven't eaten since then. I just got off of the Wii, and even exercised at the hotel yesterday before everyone arrived. So all in all I feel good.

CLEAN HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, it took me most of 5 days but I did the whole house is sorted and cleaned. I'm inviting everyone I know to stop by and take a look. You have 1 hour until it needs cleaned again. My boys are traveling mess makers. While I'm upstairs on my hands and knees scrubbing they are somewhere else undoing the clean. Today I swept up I bet a gallon of dust and crumbs and junk. I scrubbed floors on my hands and knees and then bleach mopped after that. For the first time in a long time I don't smell urine anywhere. I know that's gross but it's the reality with 3 boys in the house.

Too tight?

Been having trouble getting all my protein in this weekend. Got sick again yesterday after eating only 2 chicken wings at lunch. I don't know if I'm eating too fast, or chicken is a problem. I'm not losing as fast either so my body is maybe holding on, thinking I'm trying to starve. Yesterday I only had 3/4 of a protein bar. 5oz of chicken off of chicken wings, with blue cheese and a lean cuisine pizza, ate the topping off of the whole pizza and left half of the bread. I'm not hungry and this is barely any food. In the am I can't even drink cold water or I get the burn. Anyway I see the Dr. Friday, might have to get loosened up a tad.

I'm thinking about stepping up the exercise, as I get more fit, it will take more to make a difference. I think on days I'm not working I'd like to do 2 workouts a day. An early am maybe yoga. This am I yoga'd along with a program on Oxygen channel called Inhale. I taped it since it's on at 6am and did it at 8am. The teacher is a little crazy but I liked it. It's a lot like I do at the Y.

As I read this I think I sound like a total fanatic so I accept any doubt or rolling of eyes. I know this is a crazy opposite of how my life has been...but I really want IT this time. I think this kind of fanaticism and addiction to health is totally acceptable for me right now as I turn my body, my life into something new and healthy.

Goals:

290 by 9/1/08

270 by 12/1/08

250 by 2/22/09(1yr. anniversary of surgery)

231 by 6/7/09(38th birthday)100# lost

225 by 7/4/09(1 yr from today!)

Mind your own beezwax!!!

Now that I'm loosing noticeable weight...people and even electronics just can't keep their mouth shut!!! Kevin was talking to his sister in Oklahoma last night. I haven't spoken to her in months, I wasn't even sure she knew I had the surgery. I could hear his side of he conversation. She was asking for an update. Kevin said I was doing really well, etc. And then "yeah she checks in with her dr., she feels great, etc." She was asking if maybe I was loosing too fast. Now I remember that she took phen phen, through herself into a manic sweat festival and though I judged I said nothing. We have no relationship so she can't really try to hold me accountable. And then I get on the Wii and it told me I was loosing too fast and that I risked rebound. I just laughed out loud. I can handle the machine it's not set up to deal with individual weight loss programs. It's just programmed to slow people down to 1-2 lb. a week for the most healthy weight loss. I know it's fast right now. But I am doing it the right way and may stall eventually but won't rebound. I feel really good, my old clothes are falling off of me and my new clothes are loose. Swimming laps the other day at one point I had to stop, my trunks were falling down, my tank was rising up and my straps were falling down. Good thing I wasn't doing the backstroke at the time! Now those of you that I do have relationships with you are responsible for encouraging me if this motivation, weight loss stalls. Remind me of this time, don't let me give up.