I DID ITTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I finally almost did a headstand at Yoga tonight. They were doing really crazy things in the ultimate class, so I thought I have to go out of my comfort zone. I did it against the pillar and managed to get one leg off of the wall. I must say it was very invigorating. All that blood rushing to your head creates a great natural high.

Bling!

I was just upstairs showing Micah some new clothes I bought him. He said "did you get me any new shirts". I told him he didn't need any new shirts. He said "I want a shirt like Cameron wore for pictures." He explained it was white with gold money signs and money bags. Then he said he wanted a necklace with a cents sign on it. I think he meant a dollar sign. I said then you'll really be gangster, which is a word he uses all the time. I thought I'd try to be cool. He said "mom to be a gangster you need a girl and a gun." And you have to be bad. I tried to convince him that he could start a new gangster thing and just have girls who are friends, no guns and be cool not bad. Then I told him that he didn't have to wear anything or have anything to be cool, he was already cool. He said "I know that mom, I just want to be like Cameron, because he's my friend". This conversation is a great reminder of how hard it is to parent sometimes. I love that Micah is outgoing and artistic and into fashion. But it scares me that he would think having a gun was cool. I'm sure we'll continue these kinds of conversations in the year to come. Well have to go because now my growing up boys are fighting over the remote.

OMG I Have Fasciculation Syndrome!!!

After exercising, specifically walking I have twitching in my legs. I actually love that feeling, I know that my muscles actually had a workout. I assumed it happened to everyone. So I just got back from my walk, wanted to update my exercise log, I sit down at the computer and my legs muscles are twitching like crazy. I love Google...I just put in "why do muscles twitch after exercise?" and I found out it's called Benign Fasciculation syndrome. I left out the benign part in my title because everyone knows what that it and it would've ruined the shock factor. The article I read said it comes after intense aerobic exercise. That makes me feel good...my walk was actually intense aerobic exercise. I've pretty much settled into yoga, walking and Wii as my exercise routine. This seems to work well in my schedule. I can do yoga during the school day and walks or Wii in the evening. When I walk around the cul-de-sacs, the kids are usually outside playing. I can hear them the whole time I'm walking, so I know they are safe without me right close to the house. It's nice that they are more independent and I can worry more about taking care of myself. O.K must go now so I can make a Dr. appt. to discuss the treatment course for Fasciculation Syndrome.

STABLE

I've had a good month. Lost 8.5 lbs, most of it in the first part of the month. I'd really like to hit 10lbs. a month, but am still happy with the downward motion. I've been stuck between 286-288 for 10days. This(losing fast then stalling) is becoming my pattern so I just need to just keep doing what I'm doing and relax. It would probably be better if I stayed off the scale except for once a month, but I just can't do it. I have to know everyday. I need to change my attitude about it a little. I shouldn't say stalling or stuck, maybe just "stable".

Had a good month of exercise also. Yoga is the only thing I really look forward to doing. The last few weeks, if I haven't had that planned it's been a fight to do anything else. I haven't done the toning routine for a while, but will get back to doing it at least a few times a week this month.

Feeling ok in the depression front. Medicine is working, still sleepy and unmotivated at times, but mostly feeling like myself again.