Ebonics

I know this is a difficult subject, but it's my life. Micah and Noah though biracial biologically had been raised in a pretty lilly white, vanilla suburb. Our environment has changed in the last 2 yrs. I'm happy about this and this is what I would have wanted for my family regardless of their racial make up. The majority of their classmates are all shades of brown, all their new friends are not just African American but some are actually African. They are loved and I believe coming into their own self as biracial children. Noah in particular has picked up the urban slang, as I've been calling it. I know it's not the way all African American people speak, but it's the way a lot of their classmates and friends apeak here in Mt. Healthy. I've been correcting him, just because of the grammar. He likes to introduce his brothers like this. "I'm Noah and here go my brother Micah, and there go my brother Jadon. "
Tonight was classic though. We were standing in the quiet sanctuary of St. Nicholas Greek Orthodox Church taking a tour as part of the Greek Festival and there were about 20 people in the room. As we approached the alter. Noah says in full Noah, no volume control voice. "look Daddy there go Jesus hangin' on the cross!" I made a bee line to the back trying to stifle my laughter. NOW that's funny!!!!!!! There go mommy peeing her pants......

Addiction

I am now starting to see that my relationship with food is going to be changed forever. I got another fill on Thursday. Dr. Mobley and I had a long conversation about if I'm at my sweet spot. This basically is the spot banded people need to be at. It's when 3oz. of protein and 1/2 cup of something else keeps us full for 4 hr. I'd say I have been eating with in those boundaries more than 50% of the time, but when the opportunity arises I can hold a lot more. My basic day for a month has been a protein bar for breakfast. Salad with protein for lunch. And dinner varies. If I'm going to yoga I usually have another protein bar for dinner and then a 4th meal later a night. Lately a lean cuisine...most of the time a snack, fruit, popcorn, stick cheese. He thought this was good for me, but I still feel like I'm dieting. I really want to be physically unable to eat anymore than necessary. Right now I have great motivation, but I know my self and I will lose it eventually and this diet won't work. That's why I got the band..it's forced will power. I told him that I can still eat to much at times. At mom and dad's anniversary I ate way too much. I didn't get sick but felt very full. He put in another 1 cc. I have 11 out of 14 in my band. AND I THINK I'M FINALLY THERE. I have to eat really slow now. I have gotten sick 2 times, once before the last fill and once today. So I'm learning. Today's episode was not very nice. We went to the Greek festival...my LAST festival. It's all just a waste of money. The boys want to do rides and games. I stood in a long line for a gyro, one of my favorites. I wasn't crazy enough to think I could eat the whole thing, but I at least wanted the meat with sauce. So I ate about 4 strip of meat and that was it. I ate it way to fast and had to hide behind the carny vans and got sick. So today I have eaten 1 power bar, 3oz. of chicken, and just had one piece of thin crust pizza, slowly with a fork. And I'm totally OK with this. My life is changing and I'm happy. I need to give myself time to learn these new skills.

Monica Seles of Yoga

In power yoga she instructs us to breath in and out through our nose, constricted our throats on the exhale to make it more vigorous. Well this am there was a student I hadn't seen before or heard for that matter. Throughout the whole class she was doing this vigorous exhale that sounded like a snore. It was really distracting and comical. I kept trying to focus on my own practice but yogi the bear kept pulling me back.

I'm really getting more flexible and strong. Can't wait to see how I'm doing in a years time, with less weight and more strength. Yeah I said it I'll be doing this in a year. Not giving up on this exercise program.

Bad day at work....

It's not often that I complain about my job. I really do like it. I have busy days, hard days but today their was an incident that I can't shake. This mom with 3 boys ages 9,5 and 3 came in. We had an urgent visit and had gotten behind, so she had been waiting in a busy waiting room for abou 30 minutes. Another mom pulled me into the hallway and said "are you going to take that mom back soon because she has been verbally abusing her boys for just being boys the whole 10 minutes I've been here." I checked the sign in sheet, assured the other mom that I'd get her back as soon as possible. This mom we'll call her Patty is well known to our office. She has 3 boys, they get sick often, one time her 3 yr. old swallowed magnetics and we had daily discussions about his poop. She's a high strung mom, and anxious mom. I can be like that. Or probably was more like that when my boys were younger, so I try not to judge. I went about my business and took them back into a room. I tried to help her out, by getting the kids to sit down not climb on the chairs, I promised stickers if they listened to their mom. Most of the time kids listen better to other adults. I wish people in general had helped me out more when my boys were little. I thought everything was calm...then closed the door. And she let into those kids about how awful they were being, they weren't even that sick, blah, blah, blah...just on and on. Then the little one must have climbed back up on top of the chair. And Patty said just because the nurse is gone doesn't mean you don't have to sit on the chair and then...slap, slap, slap, ...slap, slap, slap,....slap, slap, slap. Now I'm not a perfect parent and we all lose it sometimes, I have spanked my boys a handful of times. I don't think it's very effective and haven't done it in a long time. I know others disagree with me. But the sound of him being hit over and over again was painful...of course he's crying and the mom is screaming. Dr. G comes out of the room next door at this point and says "what's going on?". I gave him a quick summary and he went into the room and asked the same question. Patty said oh he's just having a 3 yr. old temper tantrum. After they leave we discuss what to do. As a nurse I'm obligated to report abuse. Our dilemma was that I didn't see it or know for sure which child she hit. Dr. G had looked at all their butts because they had scabies and said there were no red marks. The law is you can hit your kids but only with your hand and it can't leave a mark. Dr. G said he would report it if I was uncomfortable, but I was the best witness. So I called the abuse hotline and told them what happened. They said even though it was inappropriate discipline they couldn't open up a case against her unless we have proof the child was injured. I believe red mark or not that child is injured. And I fear if she does that behind a door in a dr.s office what is going on when no one is looking or listening close by. Anyway awful story...nothing to do with weight loss...but had to vent.

Exercise Report

6/23/08 30 min free run 6.6 miles on Wii

6/24/08 75min power yoga...getting more flexible

6/25/08 day off

6/26/08 60 min power yoga

I'm doing it

6/19/08 33 min on Wii step,hula,balance

6/20/08 45 min on Wii power walk/jog almost 7 miles in 3 min, and box

6/21/08 Home calestenics in front of TV

6/22/08 20min on Elliptical-faster ever mile 14:39

Still doin it...just not writing evey day...

Lost track of days but my goal is still 6 days a week...it's falling into 4 aerobic, 2 yoga class mostly...

6/13/08 45 min. Wii aerobic and balance

6/14/08 30 min. laps in pool and water strengthening

6/15/08 33 min elliptical 2miles in 30min

6/16/08 30 Wii

6/17/08 90 min power yoga

6/18/08 day off-pack for mom and dads

Back on the Wagon

Had a great week at Lakeside. Only too hot a couple days and the storms brought cooler weather. I did not do any official exercising, but walked a lot. Also ate ice cream and snacked more. But got on the scale this am and maintained my weight, so that's good. Back to exercise this weekend and back to the YMCA classes by Monday is my plan.

Happy Birthday To Me!!!

Day 32/Day off

I really want to work out...but I worked til 1230pm. And just got home from Costco, Sam's Club and Wal Mart. Next my boys are taking me out for dinner at Red Robin....and when we get home I have to pack for the week at Lakeside. So doubt I'll get exercise in but maybe walking the aisles and lifting things in and out of cart counts.

The picture is lovely. I think I'll do this next year. But we'll need some bigger party hats!!!!!

Wii Boxing

Day 31/#27
Wii Step/Wii Boxing
33min.
sweat

Then we all went to the local catholic church festival. It's always been all about the food for me. Had some codfish with coleslaw...passed up the fried cheese, sausage roll, funnel cakes, pizzza, brats, metts, corn on the cob with butter....and it wasn't that hard.

Day 30/#26 60min. Hip Hop Class

sweat some

felt old

but had fun

Day 31/#27

60min yoga

sweat a lot!!

Micah joined me

YOOOOOGAAAAA!!!

Loved it tonight, actually looked forward to it all day. I did 90min of power yoga....I can't really believe it, but I may become a yoga fanatic.!!!

Day 30 Workout #26

90 power yoga

sweat a lot

grabbed my big toe!!!!

Day 29, Workout 25

1 month of exercising!!!!

30min free run on Wii

6.9 miles (yeah right)

sweat, fun, yeah

Monkey on my Back

I didn't think I would ever say that I like exercise, but I'm finding myself actually craving it. Today I was really tired and probably should've taken a nap. Instead I went to the Y to fit in a workout before I went to the movies. I did 33 min on the elliptical and found at about 20min. in I felt that I could go on forever. I guess it gives me a little high. Now it's the readers responsibility to remind me of this feeling when I hit a rut.

Day 28 Workout 24

33 min on Elliptical Machine

Record 14:54 mile

2nd Mile 15:14

toal 2.17 miles